New Beginnings

“Everything that has a beginning has an ending. Make your peace with that and all will be well” – Buddha 

New beginnings, what does this mean for you?

It happened during my travels in Thailand when I closed the door to my past, a past that used to be my life, my everything. It was the hardest thing to do and took around 13 months! Now when I look back, I realized that I had to go through this breakdown as it created the woman I am today.

I decided a life of new beginnings because the obvious was in front of me: to live or to go down. I won’t go into detail as I’m sure you know what I mean. So for the sake of my loved ones, my health and my future, I decided to LIVE AGAIN!

Today, I’m still in the transition period between old and new. Sometimes accompanied by pain and disappointment, lately more excitement! I look forward to walking through the door leading to the next stage of my life, where the light shines through and where flowers are blooming just for me. I promise myself to live a conscious life, take that what I’ve learnt from my past and make this new phase in my life the very best one! Bearing always in mind that everything eventually has an end.

The most important lesson learned: “The condition of my personal relationships, is a direct reflection of my degree of self-love.” 

This post is dedicated to my family and friends who supported me through the most difficult time in my life. Thank you 🙂

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Will This Day Matter In 5 Years?

No, this day will not matter in five years, absolutely not! Every time I experience the feeling of loss in my life, I force myself to believe this. Loss can be cruel, it breaks your heart and it can hurt like hell!

Loss, what does it mean? The dictionary defines loss as the fact or process of losing something or someone. According to Buddha, a human being experiences four kinds of suffering: old age, sickness, loss and death. When we experience any one of the four, it becomes very real and it is something we cannot ignore. We cannot go around these four…we have to experience or face it one day.

Last year I experienced sickness and lately only losses. Each time with a harder, tougher lesson to learn from our impermanent world. An interesting quote from Buddha: “Praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow come and go like the wind. To be happy, rest like a giant tree in the midst of them all. 

Yesterday after I lost my precious iphone and macbook, I sat down with a nice cup of coffee and ‘rested’ in what happened. Thoughts of disappointment, loss of beautiful memories and that aching pain of its-so-unfair made me burst into tears a few times. After I let it all out, I realized that despite of my losses and of what happened the last two years, I am still alive! I am still going, going strong and it could have been much worse. So with a smile I finished my (now cold) coffee, I asked that silly old question: “Will this day matter in five years?”….mmm….easy answer I guess 🙂


Are You Holding Something That You Need To Let Go?

Letting go means letting go, right? So then let go…or not?  Why holding onto things that make us unhappy anyway? It’s a subtle, clinging energy that is controlling us, yet we think we are in control.

I took on the challenge of letting things go and made myself a sacred space, lit a candle, played gentle music and there I was ready to start my little ceremony .

Boy oh boy, was I ready for a ‘bumpy’ ride! So slowly my heart opened and a rush of emotions swept over me, mainly compassion, disappointment, hurt and sadness.  The tears rolled down my cheeks and as the time went by I realized that not one of them shared the emotion happiness…’why do I hang onto them and for so long?’

I then repeated, “Today I am letting go of everything that keeps me stuck in life and all those things that do not serve me anymore. I let it go, and as I let it go…I forgive others and myself. I release this pain with love and make space for new beginnings of joy and happiness. I take control of my own life and my own happiness. Thank you!”

I started doing this in 2010 and ever since I feel lighter in my life, with my friends, with those who have hurt me and I hold no grudge against anyone or myself. I know sometimes we all do things without thinking or our intentions are perceived in a different way. Letting go means I am freeing myself from stuff that might one day show its face as a disease or any other uncomfortable situation!

After all, life is precious and should be lived to the fullest!

Why I Have Conversations?


I have conversations with myself and with others because I want to share something. Happiness is at its best when one can share it with someone.

For example, when something interesting happens to me, I have to share it. I have this urgent need to call a friend, or meet for drinks or something. This means I get to experience it ‘all over again’!

When negativity happens, I share it because I either want to let it go, get an opinion or just because I feel like experiencing it once more. This way I can see what went wrong. Having conversations means I get to learn from myself and others which means I’m wiser and stronger for when history decides to repeat itself 🙂

For me, conversation connects us all. Conversation is the verbal exchange of thoughts, opinions and feelings. One needs to be conscious when conversing. Everything leaves an impression, and it is up to each one of us to be aware how and why we communicate. Words vibrate into the universe and can change the air molecules. Just like water, so be aware of what you wish for, it might come true!  Just for fun, please join the Wish Group on Facebook 🙂

How Do You Step from the Top of a 100-foot Pole


Do you listen to yourself when your inner voice tells you: ”enough!” Are you able to step down your 100-foot pole?

It is time to take off your pompous mask and allow the world to see your true face: ”the naked you without  your illusional perfection or immortality!”

How many of us are willing to do that? How many of us are willing to admit we are wrong, we are fragile and we are vulnerable beings on this dear planet?

They say ignorance is bliss….but what they not saying: ”ignorance is the cause of all our problems.”

An interesting thought: ”Stepping down is our own translation and perception of reality. What if stepping down means stepping up in the eyes of the universe?” 

When this urge comes, adjust something in your life, pay attention and start investigating your reality. Listen and enquire deeply about your feelings and emotions. Trust in opening up to those who truly cares about you and open up to their perceptions and perspectives of you. The more you check your life, the deeper you will look into the source of your mind and the more your emotions appear, the more they will disappear. Resulting in turning around your confusion into that of authenticity and lasting happiness.

Now what about that pole you were climbing…..which pole?